A new and more aggressive plan for the future.

After the initial shock of being fired waned, i knew i had to figure something out.

What are my immediate needs? what is most basic? food, shelter, and love. Food, i have covered because i can cook which lowers the overall cost. Love, i get lots of but must make a conscious effort to give to myself while existing in this revisited survival mode. I've been here before and it most affects shelter. Rent is high, although it could be higher in this neighborhood, and it must be paid regularly in most cases. My landlord is uberforgiving but she is bound to reach her limit in the next month or so. Paying the households has a direct effect on my subconscious. So does the dreaded term "service disconnection". it's easier to feel better about not paying the rent as long as the cable/internet service remains functional.

At some points, i wonder if there is a breakdown hiding behind my calmness around all of this. However, most of the time i know this isn't the case. "They'll get it when I got it" and "pay yourself first" are two pieces of mom's good advice that have been invaluable over the past month and a half. Even this process of documenting the experience honestly and openly is catharsis.

I need two kinds of money making positions:
-a hustle that brings cash in quickly
-a career related position for longterm financial gain

That's where 'a new and more aggressive plan' comes in to view.

The hustle draws on skills gained before my non-profit life. Becoming a restaurant bartender/server or slaving away as a semi-anonymous cater waiter isn't an overwhelmingly appealing part of my future. However, it can be undeniably lucrative and relatively quickly. That'll keep me in good standing with my landlord and bill collectors. That'll keep me living in San Francisco, a city that tries to spit me out every few years or so to no avail.

Acquiring a career position can be a complicated and cumbersome task. The issue is further agitated by the pressing need to make money as soon as humanly possible. Rounds of interviews are taxing and time consuming.

I need an immediate plan that works to fulfil my immediate needs.

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Fired: Ask and you shall receive

Getting fired wasn't exactly what i had in mind when i asked God for a way out of my then current work situation. But i was begging and therefore won't be choosey about the way in which it unfolded. This post isn't even about the details of the terminating event. Lesson learned: when the employee and employer agent (i.e. Direct Supervisor) reach an impass, the clock is ticking. In this instance, the ax swung before i had been offered suitable employment elsewhere. I had interviewed with two separate entities, turned one down (still no regrets - it was an extremely bad fit.) and had been turned down by the other. The latter had been difficult since i had actually wanted the position. The frustration of not being able to get away from my then current boss and position drained me. Insert axe one month later.

What now? I had nothing saved. A little shaken by their awkwardness during the firing conversation, i walked out, went to a friend's place where i applied for Unemployment insurance. We then laughed it off over a lunch of comfort food.