The age of the medicated...

Coffee, Cigarettes, Daily Aspirin, Heroin, Meth, Zoloft or whatever... We are in the age of the medicated. I can't keep up in meetings without caffeine (mainly because my high-strung co-workers are already caffeinated by the time I get there). I don't club much without meth, coke, or at least a shot of whiskey these days (which means, ironically, I don't go out like before I started doing heavier drugs. And LAWD knows I don't seem to function well overall without my Zoloft. A little goes a long way.

This week, since rejoining the land of the medicated, I am just singing through the majority of my week. I'm revisiting pills. After 3 weeks of difficulty with co-workers and work overall, and 3 consecutive weekends of being shut inside, feeling like every outting was a fucking chore, I decided to revisit pills. Pills for what you ask? EVERYTHING! I give up on being able to do this on my own. Shit, nobody else is.

I'm taking 4 pills a day for body weight loss/management [2 in the morning and 2 in the afternoon], 2 pills a day for mood [prescription strength please... i have prescription strength issues here!], a vitamin in the morning, and a sleeping pill at night. That's 6 pills a day! And I don't have any life threatening illnesses. I won't get into the arguement of whether or not it's "too much". That's subjective. So far, so good.

The outcome:
I am having less random food cravings. My body mind connect seems to be skewing closer toward "normal" [operationally defined as my ability to feel my weight on my body as it truly exists, i.e. not thinking i'm staying at the same weight but finding that none of my clothes fit anymore]. I am dropping weight as well.

Thank you, dear Ripped Fuel

The vitamin seems to be making me sharper at faster speeds. Also, they ensure that, while I am cutting back with my food intake, I am still getting the nutrition I need. I AM a growing boy after all...

Thank you, dear One-A-Day Men's Formula

No matter how stressed I get, I am able to sleep better at night, which helps me to maintain mood and therefore sanity.

Thank you, Non Aspirin PM.

The filler is definitely the best, Zoloft makes it all worthwhile.

til later...